Make me sad, make me mad, make me feel alright?

I mainly post art here, I may write, although I’m not too sure about it… If you’re curious about my writing my wattpad is here.

Warning: My work may be offensive, such as harsh language and gore/violence being used.

You can ask me questions but please keep them PG13. I’m a minor.

I’m interested in lots of musical projects and anime/shows/media. But since I watch and read a lot, sometimes I forget. (~_~;)

Media: Some of my favorites are Serial Experiments Lain, Azumanga Daioh, Ranfren, South Park, a bit of TouHou, & Overtime (the indie game).

Music: Breakcore, Yabujin, Drain Gang (Bladee and Yung Lean), random underground junk I find on youtube or Soundcloud, My Chemical Romance, Deftones, sprinkle of Death Grips, TouHou music and Mindless Self Indulgence.

If you share similar interests, don’t be afraid of hitting me up in DMs. I’m open to finding friends who like the same things as I do (/◕ヮ◕)/ !!

I really really like 2000s - 2013 internet culture.

18:30 pm Tuesday 5 August 2023

Aphex Twin - Aisatsana

All I can remember are nightmarish details of what I assume was a brief dream I conjured in my mind during my semi-conscious state while crossing the lanes between being asleep and being alert.

I think I can remember someone like a dad’s friend (most likely a student) giving me a CD. And I went up to my room to put it in there. I didn’t have my Macbook Pro like always but instead it was a PC. Like a windows PC.

I forgot some details here and there but then I was on an old 2000s anime music video website. Where I saw Tomo Takino in a ytpmv formatted video.

Her screams were all choppy and edited to fit the song’s melody like any other ytpmv. She also slammed her head on the floor face-down at times. All choppy, like I said. Then I saw a link that led to the original “meme” mv, which was a tf2 fan-made mv.

When I clicked the link I was transported to a website that looked uncannily similar to know your meme. There on the thumbnail, I saw cirno and scout from tf2 performing choreography or something like that to the joke song. And it wasn’t really even a ytpmv either, they were just…rapping.

The strange part of the video was that, you know how youtube has the “chapters” feature? Well, this video was divided into sections, and they were SHOWN DIRECTLY. I remember there were several of them. But I could only remember one that said “DIVORCE” and “RATS RATS RATS”.

It was literally displayed like this. Then the dream ended, and those things were the only thing I could recount in accuracy.

They were rapping about Divorce?? And rats?? While dancing?? Cirno?? Scout?? And the tomo ytpmv was nowhere similar to the video with cirno and scout. It made no sense whatsoever.

And the weirdest part of all this is. I wasn’t even watching ytps/ytpmvs, or consuming any touhou/azu/tf2 content. Well I mean I kinda was this whole week. But I was reading about <FRAMESETS> right before I fell asleep! How can that even happen?!

So basically, Randal is eating ramen, Sebastian stalks hungrily as he sees his fellow gingeroid slurping on some noods. Randal realises his pet is hungry far too late to save any carbohydrates. Remembering a method he uses, he saves the day by making use of the leftovers. Inspired by personal experience.

Left - over instant ramen and shitty frozen bread is the best combination to savor your wallet from a trip to a candle lit restaurant with red curtains draping the walls offering you the same thing for a kidney in exchange!

Graduated cylinders are used in science labs because now they can be used instead of regular cylinders since they’ve graduated with a proper degree at a science major.

hmm, don’t feel like interacting with people so much… it’s so tiring. I just wanna sit down and do things I like… But… they said it’s not a good thing. I should “talk to people more”. Or whatever that means. How bothersome. But I need to look normal and stuff, wow this thing sure sucks [> _ >] i’m just so full of thoughts nothing can come out. I’m constipated of feelings. Weeeeh ( - 0 -)…

Anyways I’ve been sooooo invested in School Days and touhou.

I wanna know if something is wrong with me so I can fix things and be a normal girl like everyone else ( . w . )

Angel of darkness, Angel of darkness, the world is in your hands, but I will fight and I will stand… (/ o 3 o )/

21:47 pm Tuesday 25 July 2023

SpongeBob squarewave - fly swatter

I had a dream last night where marry brown had a special menu item. I was in my room and very hungry. So I decided to open up the grab app in my phone (I can’t even use it in real life) and noticed the promo for this thing. The menu consisted of a hot dog with a unique topping, I forgot what it was though. And the “special” part of the “special menu item” was that you got an approximately 15 litre bag of Coca Cola.

Just a big plastic bag full of coke. No fancy wrapping or anything. I’m assuming it’s 15 litres because I’m trying to remember the image of it and eyeing it with memory . Anyway I ordered it and the delivery guy arrived pretty quick, I didn’t notice. So the grab “manager” called me and said to pick it up immediately because the delivery guy was gay and having a gay delivery guy was rare in this country. I was a bit taken aback by how fast it was and looked out the window of the upstairs office and saw him on the motorcycle with a heavy, heavy bag of coke drooping down his left shoulder.

I complied and went downstairs. I asked how much it costed and was surprised it costed the amount of money I had left. I spent all my remaining pocket money on it but was too hungry to care. Guessed that it costed so much because of the ginormous amount of Coca Cola that came along with it. So I went back to my room and placed it on the floor. Wondering how they’d serve this unreasonably large amount of coke at the restaurant itself in real time instead of delivering to someone’s house.

I didn’t want it in a plastic bag so I transferred all of it into a 2 litre cup (somehow? Well this is a dream, best not to question reality). Then I looked at the huge empty plastic bag on my floor and realized I needed to clean my room out because it was full of plastic bags and bent metals dipped in milk and some other trash that is all gibberish which I cannot recall.

charming serial killer (//^ o ^//) ~ <3

finally finished~

It’s rainy season.

I was inspired because the other day I made a plastic trash bag hat for my friend and it is rainy season here in my country.

super late to the scene kyle and goth stan party and i’ve always loved this combo but I didnt ever make time for it sorry stanky luvrs :P

Nitori (ive kept this hidden for too long) She’s probs my fav in th 10 cuz she’s fun and playful. Hina is also kind and respectful but imo I like Nitori better and my argument is justified because :3

Ahhh to be honest I really really hate this but I love Josiah too much. I promise more ‘Siah content WILL be uploaded but eee have this for now xD

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